Reflections on exercise 1

Yes, it was pretty easy to think of a relative experiences, goals and role models.

I haven't thought of an individual person I want to share my reflections with yet. I would like to have somebody about the same point in life as me, and somebody male so there's a shared perspective. I'm gonna put a pin in that and circle back to it and see what comes to mind, but meantime I am putting my stuff up on a blog and sharing that with a few trusted people.  I don't really expect that anyone's gonna actually read my blog, but maybe I'm wrong about that. But someone to actually talk about my reflections with in real time, that I don't have quite yet.  Maybe two people in my support community, who have been supporting me in one component of this initiative already, one of them is formal we male bodied and male assigned at birth if not, actually female, so in a sense there is some shared experience there.

The point of naming people rather than positions is pretty self evident. In this case, there's no CEO of childhood. 

The biggest Takeaway for me from doing this exercise was that I've allowed failure at the theater of the homeless to define me more than I realized. I hardly ever think about it, I hardly ever talk about it with people, nobody would think to ask me about it so it just doesn't come up in conversations. Yet it seems to have proved that trying to do an initiative would bring severe punishment and pain, even though there was a lot of listening involved in how I went about it at the time. I've also gotten to see where I feel moments of passion and moments of doubt or wanting to check out.