Changing Projects--ish
I started with 3 projects, since I wasn't yet clear even which field my vision fits into, let alone what the project exactly should be. I had felt so strongly and passionately the need to tell a story to the mainstream (tv) that saves lives and reduces suffering and increases love, and at the same time I felt to tell the story I would have to try to live the values it depicted in my actual life too. But I don't have any passion for helping the TV industry, and my interview with one person in that field, and conversations with a few others, have helped me recognize that it was disingenuous of me to pretend that I did want to serve there. Sure, I would in a particular case want someone to be able to get their vision realized and share a work of heart rather than one of commercialism, but if they had to put their work on the stage in a community theatre setting instead I would not feel any significant sense of loss for them. I need to surrender to the process ...